August is usually a busy month for me, being it’s my birthday. This past August was really busy with other events I had organized or that I had promised to attend, vacation, as well as preparing for other work related stuff that is approaching. The last week in August was the week after my birthday and I pledged to only go out a couple hours on Friday and spend the rest of the weekend in a desperate attempt to get caught up as much as I could on blog posts, bills, house chores, errands, and sleep. I ended up getting everything accomplished but sleep.

I then went into this past week knowing I had mornings filled with meetings and other appointments and afternoons filled with training til 5, which would then make my nights hectic trying to go to the gym, get work done afterward, and be in bed before midnight. It only made me look forward to the upcoming three day weekend in which I would only relax. Pajamas, the gym, movies, sleep. Lots of sleep. Everything I predicted was correct. The week was slammed, I worked on maybe 12 hours of sleep total for the week and was ready for the weekend. Until I learned that I had an insanely busy week at work the week after too. This weekend has now been the same as last. Cramming to get stuff done.. bills paid, work done, house cleaning, and luckily I’ve been able to get *some* sleep.

Some might call me a workaholic. Trust me though. It’s not all work work. In fact most of the stuff in the evenings was non-work related. Projects I’ve started on my own or volunteered to help on, and making sure I got my ass to the gym every day. It can get exhausting at times, but in a way I am really starting to grow used to the beautifully chaotic lifestyle that I am going to be having over the next 8 months.

I think in some ways it makes me feel wanted and it keeps me from sitting in my house all day certainly. Additionally, everything I’ve been filling my days to the brim with lately has had a purpose and a reason. They’ve been projects and other things I am passionate about. And because they are all items I am excited about, it hardly seems like work at all. I do notice the lack of sleep but I always manage to squeeze enough in to be Miss Happy Sunshine by the time I arrive at work the next morning.

Chaos is an interesting thing. Sometimes it can destroy your life. Sometimes it can overcome you. Sometimes it can feel unbalanced. At the same time though, chaos can be very balanced. On some occasions, it may make life’s outcomes a little more uncertain, but then it always feels like a miracle, and you feel courageous, when everything turns out well in the end.